Wednesday, February 22, 2012 1 comments

Me :D

I rarely talk about myself in this blog. That's because I prefer to stay anonymous, not wanting my personal life intruded. But I'll spill a few beans this time, some basic stuffs.

These are the Q&As.

Q : Describe yourself.

this kinda question to me is a tough question to tackle. I suppose it's appropriate to answer the question with yet another question and simply ask, "Well, what do you wanna know?". After about half and hour, I'll probably answer this )


Me : I'm an absolute awkwardo and uber shy.
But I seemed to break out of my shy shell some time around in high school. I think. I'm great at procrastinating.

I attended SMK Seri Gombak High School and for me it was all about prefect duties, SPM and attempting to get my homework done BEFORE Sunday night at 1am.

My most popular taunt during high school : BLUR
Ahh sheesh not just high school but until now.

Q : How's everything going on with your life right now?

Me : It's pretty good I guess. I mean, I have my ups and downs but with my family and friends here by my side. I ain't got nothing to worry 'bout. With SPM is over, I'm living a layback life right now and I'm enjoying every moment of it.


Q : What are your most favourite foods?

( Yet another tough question because I love all kind of foods. I eat almost everything and love to try new savouries. But most fovourite? I rarely have thick enough shoulder pads to counterattack with a touchdown answer. Am I being too dramatic? Haha. If someone put a gun to my forehead and demanded specifics, I'd probably splutter the followings )


Me : My mom's cooking, sushi, anything with chocolate, candy, western, anything with rice..

Q : But that's just about everything.

Me : Told you so. Next!

Q : What are your bad moments in life?

Me : 1. Getting hit with a shopping cart on the back of the foot.
        2. Stepping on a Lego. That hurts so bad..
        3. Accidentally destroy my paper while erasing.
        4. I dip the cookie into milk for too long and it breaks off.
        5. Shutting down the computer and realising I need it again.
   
Q : Stop! Everyone experienced that for crying out loud. I mean yours only. Bad things that gave you experiences, and made you who you are right now.

Me : Ooooooo. Well, that's worth another entry. You know what, I'll write 'bout it, in another entry, next time. See y'all later!

Q : Hey! Wait up! You forgot to return the microphone! Heyyy!!!



Sunday, February 19, 2012 0 comments

Human

What is it that makes us human?
It's not something that can be programmed.
It's not something that can be put in a chip.
It is the strength of the heart. 

                                                            - John Connor, Terminator Salvation

Saturday, February 18, 2012 0 comments

ℱℴℓℓℴω ℒℴѵℯ

It's 6 pm and this is happening! It's happening again! Sucha pain in the neck! I feel like I'm back to those dark days of anarchy!!

Okay, maybe I emphasize it a little bit too much..

You know, it's ironic but usually during the twilight, all the negative ions will start to hover me like the clouds, and a-waste-of-time thoughts suddenly fogs up.


I keep thinking about the times I messed up. The embarrassment I suffered, no matter how small. The screw ups I made. The people I pissed off. The failings. The things I'm not that I want to be, as well as the things I am that I don't want to be.

It scares me as I felt lonely and empty. I don't think I qualify for depression just yet, but I'm assuming that I'm 2 seconds away from it.


Point is, I keep seeing the negatives in my life. Where's this painkiller to my twilight disease? How do I shove off these feelings? Help? A chocolate? Doesn't work, tried it already. A teddy bear? No way, what am I? A 5-year-old? Okay maybe a hug from the fluffy teddy bear would help but then, I'll let the teddy bear be my punching bag to release all of my frustrations. Thank you teddy bear, to be sucha kind and emotionless stuffed toy even when half of your cotton is already outside your body. I'm just kidding, I would never do that to teddy bears, they're too cute haha! But frankly, it's because they value of money actually.

Okay let's get serious. Well actually I'm not that depressed as it seems. This entry does makes me look like that, but I'm fine. You know what they say, "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift. That's why it is called present." I get that from the movie Kungfu Panda actually haha, but the saying does have some points you know. I mean, if we were talking about the past, it's a history. There's nothin' you can do bout it. I get that.

But like I said, sometimes I do think about what I did in the past. And the painful ones are always the one making their permanent marks in my memory. How I wish I could put all of them in the trash bag and bid them goodbyes as they go away in the garbage truck.

But then, I realised that whenever bad memories are haunting me, that's the time when I needed to be with my beloved family and friends and make good memories with them. Let the good memories replace the bad ones. Let bright replace darkness. Let happiness replace sadness. Let rookery replace loneliness. Let joy replace emptiness. And above all, let ℒℴѵℯ replace hatred =)



Wait people, I'm not finished just yet. I'm must not forget the most important part in this whole transformation.

This whole thing isn't gonna work if you forget Him. Yes, always seek for redemption and He will guide you through it all :')


Friday, February 17, 2012 0 comments

I

1. I've always wanted to turn around in a big chair, holding a cat and say "I've been expecting you."

2. I do not stalk...... I simply gather information for specific purposes.

3. I don't care how old I am, whenever I see a bubble, I will hunt it down and kill it.

4. I have a huge house, a gorgeous facial feature, loads of cash, tons of friends, I have a perfect life. Thank you, Sims

5. I'm sad when people say they miss you, but don't make a effort to speak to you or see you..

6. I love my ringtone. . But when it rings in public, I'm embarrassed.

7. I die a little inside when I see an old person eating alone at a restaurant.

8. I'm like urghhh.. when i meow at cats and they dont meow back. How unbelievably rude.

9. I love that awesome feeling of pure joy when opening the fridge and SOMEONE'S BEEN SHOPPING :D

10. I feel restless when the teacher doesn't erase the board COMPLETELY. The little mark haunts me throughout class.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 0 comments

Keep It Simple, Speak From The Heart

This entry is short & simple. Just sayin, probably my most favourite word. 

"ASSALAMUALAIKUM"

Why is that so? Not only the meaning is beautiful and represent kindness, I think the word resembles courtesy, decency, modesty, politeness, elegance, sincerity, clarity, and above all, it resembles Islam :')


-For the record, I think it's wayyy better in Arabic spelling.


Wednesday, February 8, 2012 0 comments

The Green-Eyed Monster


I hate to admit it, but sometimes jealousy is inevitable and I could get jealous pretty easy. I'm decent at hiding it but that's just because I excel at making a straight face. One habit used to cover up the other.



When jealousy strikes, I have these internal pangs inside of me.

If it gets even worse, instead of shooting someone with a rifle
I'll just go somewhere far away or rather just run away silently to brace myself. It's like shutting myself from the world.

I hate jealousy.




If only I had the power to control how the world works around me, I wouldn't have knew jealousy.
I would get all the things I wanted.
I would be able to change everything the way I wanted.
Most of all, I would be able to steal hearts, in the metaphorical sense, and never be without love or adoration.

Despite my jealousy, I more often feel pride and joy for my friends and their accomplishments, or... them having to have the thing I wanted the most.
It's true that there's always going to be someone better that you in the world, and there's plenty of time to embrace this truth.




But sometimes you just want to punch that person in the ribs, and that's okay too.

As long as you don't actually do it, you'll be fine. Probably.

 
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